r kelly, r. kelly, gun, excuse me, inner me, inner, in my mind, sabotage, self sabotage, threat, threaten, threatening, threatened, fml, fuck my life, what did i do, what did i do to myself, what did i do to deserve this, poor life choice, poor life choices, life choice, life choices, regret, what are you doing, what am i doing, i have no idea what i'm doing, i'm a mess, life, fuck life, my life sucks